Feeling helpless...

Being "home bound" is not fun. Having to depend on others is hard. Wanting to do everything ones self, yet be so dependent is frustrating.

I have realized as I have looked back at the last few months, what I could do and what I couldn't, the good days and the bad, the sickness and the mending, the... I have been angry. Deep down I have been angry at God. "Why me?" Why us?" "Why now?"

Why not us? Why not now?

God never said crazy things wouldn't happen at crazy times in this world. He never said it would all be easy. He just said He would be there.

Yes, our family has been through a little fire lately. But instead of wallowing in self pity, I need to see this as an opportunity to grow stronger. Stronger in health, stronger in well-being, stronger in faith. Stronger in Christ.

We hate the helpless moments, yet those are the moments when we realize a power much greater than anything we can imagine. That is when we see something greater than ourselves. That is when we see the strength of God at its finest.

Then somehow, when we search deep, we realize that it is worth it.