"Believing and not doubting..."

James 1:5-6 says;
"If any of you lack wisdom he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault and it will be given to him. But when he ask he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind."

Last week I had some moments when I literally felt like I was drowning at sea. Waves of uncertainty and frustration were smacking against me every time I tried to get my head above water. I have a hard time forgiving myself of past failures sometimes. They come back to haunt me at my weakest moments.

The first chapter of James is one of my favorite chapters in the bible. It talks about the blessings that come when we hang in there. That even when life isn't easy, that our faith can get us through.

However, in verses 5-6 it talks about how doubt can toss us around like "waves at sea." I realize that sometimes the peace will not come my way, because I just will not let go and give it all to God. I'm like Peter, trying to walk on the water with Jesus, but give up before reaching my destination. I am so thankful that the Lord never tires of me and is always there to pull me back out of the raging seas.

Today starts a new work week. We have work, school, sports keeping us busy among the craziness of this world. It is easy to start drowning in busyness and end up tired and feeling hopeless.

My goal this week is to keep my eyes on the Lord. To believe and try my hardest not to doubt. It would be a wonderful feeling to just be able to walk with my Lord, everyday, on top of the waters of life. That would be pure joy.