Muddy Waters

What do you do at the end of the day when you look in the mirror and you are not happy with yourself? For whatever reason you feel BLAH! Bad hair day, big zit on the end of your nose, feeling the extra pounds you are carrying, frustrated with self and all that entails... Or maybe you're snappy with the kids, selfish in your marriage, feeling very alone and fighting the need to have a big 'ol pity party. Seriously, what do you do?

I do the only thing I can do...PRAY!!!

I have found I can't fight the blues alone. It is a process, for I have to constantly remind myself that although I certainly don't deserve the grace and love of Jesus Christ, He is there to carry me through the tangled messes I weave both in life and in my head.

"Thank you, Lord. Once again I come before you asking for your forgiveness for my selfishness, for my greediness, for my laziness, for the ugliness that infects the beauty of knowing you and talking to you daily. Help me let go and allow myself to be carried, for it is muddy waters in which I stand. I will sink deeper, if not for your strength, your grace and your love. When I look in the mirror I long to see the beauty that is all you. AMEN."

I truly have to let go, for my first inclination is to go build a boat to sail away out of the muck into the clear waters. However, in the time it would take to build my boat, my Savior could have already walked me across the river. Oh, if only I would learn not to have to have control and do things myself all the time! I get on to my children all the time; "It isn't all about YOU!" When was the last time I really heard my own words. When was the last time I was truly selfless?

Something to ponder... Something to PRAY about! Words to remember and live by.